December 27th 2025
I've missed a few days. I'm really not good at keeping track of things. I am supposed to be tracking what I eat and drink in a day. I made it with two days and then, got too busy and forgot. So that's not good.
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First off. We bypassed Christmas: Â Â For my home, my husband and I (not having kids at home anymore) decided, that this year it was ok to skip it. We didn't decorate or do anything special for eachother, we had a lot on our minds and none of made us feel like we wanted to celebrate. We thanked god of course for giving us Christ's birthday but other than that, all we did was go over to my oldest son's house to celebrate with all the family members, including my two ex husbands. (That's a story for another day).
We had a good time, we gave some gifts to the grandkids, enjoyed everyone's company and only stayed for about an hour before my surgery site began to hurt and I couldn't hardly hold myself up anymore. So we went home. Honestly, it was just another day to us this year. Sad, I know but it is what it is.Â
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Last I wrote here, I was trying to get a hold of my Oncologist to see if she had a change to look at the CT scan my GEN DOC faxed over to her. It took them a couple days, but they got back to me and said that I needed to 1: watch was was going on, if it gets larger, or I have another episode (vomiting, pass out) then go straight to ER. (So far haven't had another episode). 2. She wants to feel it for herself (when I come in on January 6th to start Chemo) to determine if it is either a "fluid filled Pocket" or if it, again, might be a hernia. They didn't tell me what they would do if it is a hernia. However, I already know, that is a laparoscopic surgery to put in a mesh and keep it from bulging any further. What I do not know as of now, is if she will have me go ahead and start Chemotherapy or wait until I heal from Surgery. So, AGAIN, I am just biding my time sitting around here writing cookbooks and creating coloring books. Nearing the 6th and getting very nervous and stressed. I would like to know what I am in for on the 6th.
SO, just in case, we are planning for surgery, it is outpatient surgery and I suspect they will have us come back at another date to do that. I can't imagine she would have me go through chemo, as that will kill my immune system and cause problems with possible infections. SOOOO. I doubt I will be having Chemo on the 6th. Preparing anyway, taking all the things I will need with me just in case.
Still can't work, so I am trying to get my disability. Hoping the new year proves to be fruitful in that I get my disability re-instated (actually, it was SSI, and I lost it because I got married and had a part time job). I am only looking at getting $500 a month. But every little bit helps.
Not a darn thing planned for New Years. We just are not feeling it this year. We are too focused on this "cancer" problem.