Jan 28th 2026

SSA UPDATE: 

It's been two weeks (give or take a day) I received the letter that said, A decision will be made in approximately 220 Days on if you qualify for Disability.

UGH

Okay. Can't do anything about that now can I.

Jesus help this go through.........

UPDATE:

It's the day after Chemo #2

This one was a doozy and if this is what it's going to be like for the next 4 sessions, honestly, I don't think I will make it.  This pain is taking my emotional state to a whole new LOW level. I've been through some crap in my life that made me pray for death a few times. Abuse from parents (mental abuse), abuse from Boyfriends, neglect from husbands, low point in my life where I lost custody of my Oldest child for 8 months because of bad choices I was making. Recoverign from Severe car wrecks multiple times, one nearly killed me,  Living with health issues like Daily Migraines, alpha gal and chronic back pain...... Those were a breeze compaired to this experience.

all in all, at least I got some good sleep last night. Woke up feeling a bit refreshed, except for the leg pain that did randomly wake me up through the night. Still getting up at midnight and 4 am to Urinate. At least it's not 10+ times like it used to be.   The leg pain has been less frequent through today. It's a bit more tolerable. Able to feel better and see the brighter side to getting through this. My entire body is so weak, it's an exhaustion like nothing I have ever felt. Not even recovering from childbirth, or having to get up every hour on the hour to feel a fussy sick baby (Yes cody, I am talking about you). This kind of exhaustion you can't explain to anyone. When you say you are tired and you get up and wash the dishes anyway. That is not THIS. THIS, is, carry me to bed because my legs don't work. THIS is my entire body wants to sit still and NOT move at all because it can't. THIS is too tired to cry.

It's bed time and it's going to be a rough night. The leg pain / bone pain is back with a vengeance. I don't think I will sleep tonight. How can I . This hurts way way too bad.