December 6th 2025

Okay, Time to see the Dr. 

We left a few hours early so we could pick up some things.  I had been doing research on Cancer fighting Foods, as well as foods for boosting immune system. Which I will be writing a free booklet on all this info and will post it here somewhere. 

Anyway.  Shopping was hard. I did not get a wheel chair, I am stubborn and figured someone else was worse off than me, I could just walk. I will use the Cart/Trolly to hold me up.   And boy did I...  The first store I made it half way through before I practically laid over the cart to take the weight off my legs. Legs were very weak, very quickly. We still had 2-3 more stores to go to and try to find somewhere to eat lunch.

Now it's just the waiting game. It's getting daunting. An entire month of waiting to start Chemo, knowing that I won't be done with Chemo until June 2026.  That is what I keep telling myself. If all goes well, June 2026 will be the beginning of my new life, living with Cancer and working hard to find a new normal, healthy and alive.

It's strange, I have this feeling of pending doom. Anxious daily, feeling panicked at moments when thinking about what is coming up.  Deep breathing is saving me.

Yesterday I went to get my Hair cut. In anticipation of Losing my hair. I realized I am the type to just shave it off. I don't want to see it falling out. So the plan is, January 21st after I get my first treatment but before my second treatment, I will be getting my head Shaved. Bald baby bald.  Not sure if my head will sport the look very well, but at this point, who cares.  I only care about keeping myself comfortable and healthy while going through this journey.

Before After

 I am spending my time talking to others that are going through MY CANCER, and those that have gotten the same Chemo that I will be getting to see what they say of how to deal with and prepare for side affects.  I'm finding a lot of helpful information, and a lot of negativity as well.  Some people have had a very bad experience, where other's lives haven't been affected hardly at all. So we shall see.